blu64 Posted January 31, 2005 Author Share Posted January 31, 2005 hello people: something happened which i want to share with you, I think i understand it but i am curious what u think. i realize that suicide is on the scale of desperate and stupid things right up at the top. nontheless thats what i tried, 120mg of valium would i figured be about right. but i woke up, at least most of me did. Whats missing is the part of me that couldn't live without her. i think that part of me did indeed die, i can feel something coming from it, like its found what it needed to find and now i can go on and find what i need to find. please don't anyone think im advocating suicide here, im not, it was the stupid,desperate,measure of a person who was hurting beyond words. it was wrong and i believe had i died i would not be happy with the results.(no [censored]) but i think it has layed to rest that part of me that felt he must go after her. I hope that that part of me is happy. I can't say that i'm happy yet, but i once again can envision the possability. for that i am greatful. and ren, I dont know if i will make anything usefull or good of my life but i am greatful that i have the chance to. may which ever god you worship bless each of you. thankyou. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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